"The ceasefire is weak, it could break anytime."
"The future feels dark. The ceasefire is weak, it could break anytime."
These are the words of emergency care nurse Waleed Rizq, who lives and works in Khan Younis in Gaza.
When we last interviewed the father of three exactly one month ago today his tone was very different.
It was after news of an agreed peace deal to end the war in Gaza had broken, and just hours before a promised ceasefire was due to come into effect.
At the time he told RTÉ News how happy he was that the war was "finally over".
"Now I can dream of a safer life for my three little girls, where they can sleep, learn and just be kids again," he said then.
In late September and early October RTÉ News was following the lives of Waleed in Gaza and his sister Manal in Dublin.
When news of the impending ceasefire broke, the siblings were cautiously optimistic about what it might mean for Gaza and for their family.
Since then Waleed has continued to document his family's life in Gaza for RTÉ News.
"The best moment was when the ceasefire started and we felt safe," he said this week.
"The war stopped, and I saw the fear leave my children's eyes. They could study again, play outside without me worrying every second. Seeing them laugh, being children again, that was the best moment."
31-year-old Waleed and his wife Amna have three daughters, 6-year-old Eileen and twins Lena and Lana, who turn three next month.
"Slowly, things are better. Prices are lower now. We can find meat, bread, cheese, eggs in the markets," he said.
"Before we couldn't find them or they cost too much. My daughters eat better now, I can see they have more energy."
But this peace is fragile.
Twice Israeli claims of truce violations by Hamas lead to deadly strikes on so-called safe zones in Gaza.
The first came nine days into the ceasefire, on 19 October, the second, another nine days later, on 28 October.
"People were very afraid. The fear came back so fast," Waleed said.
"We just started to feel a bit safe, and then everything changed in one moment," he said.
"Everything felt dangerous again. That's the worst feeling for a father, you can't protect your children or promise them everything will be okay."
Now he says that he remains fearful the ceasefire will collapse and war could return to Gaza.
"That fear is always with us now," he said.
"I want real peace for my family, not just a pause, but actual peace where we can plan for tomorrow. I want my children to go to school, to play safely. I'm human. That's all I'm asking for," Waleed said.
Waleed continues to work as an emergency care nurse.
"After the war fewer people come to hospital for (emergency) surgeries but many are getting sick because there isn't enough medicine or clean water.
"Many of the people who come need rehabilitation after losing limbs (in the conflict) or for elective surgery," he explained.
All the while, Waleed and his family continue to live in a tent in a camp in al-Mawasi in Khan Younis.
At the beginning of the ceasefire many displaced Gazans looked to return to their homes or at least to what remained of them.
Waleed and his family have not been able to do so.
They have seen a video that was circulated on social media showing the destruction of their neighbourhood in Rafah before the ceasefire.
However, they cannot go to access the damage for themselves as Rafah is still a restricted area under Isreali control.
Under the first phase of the ceasefire Israeli forces withdrew to a line that splits Gaza in two.
Now Waleed's family's tent in the al-Mawasi camp is on one side of this so-called yellow line and Rafah, and what remains of their home, lies on the other.
Returning there is an impossibility for now.
"I hope to return to Rafah, that's where we belong," Waleed said.
"I want to start life again there with my children, to rebuild. I want them to have their own rooms again, to feel safe in a real house. I don't know when, but I keep this hope."
