Pippa O'Connor has opened up about suffering a miscarriage at 10 weeks, which she says "knocked me for six".
The designer and entrepreneur opened up about the miscarriage while appearing on Georgie Crawford's The Good Glow podcast, adding that it happened in 2020.
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O'Connor, who is married to Brian Ormond and has three children, said: "I was 10 weeks, and I suppose it absolutely knocked me for six. I had never been through anything like that before."
"The first two times I had gotten pregnant happened easily, and then after Louis, it didn't happen. It didn’t happen for five years. Both Brian and I thought, 'Jesus, that’s that. That’s absolutely fine, we’re unbelievably happy to have our two boys’."
"And I genuinely felt that, I am very much like, don’t be always wanting more. I was content with our two little boys, but part of me was always like I’d want a third. It was just in my head."
Eventually, she become pregnant again. She went into detail about the devastating day she went for a scan and found out there was no heartbeat.
"It was like nine o'clock in the morning, I was all dressed up because I was on the way to Kildare Village", she recalled. "Brian was waiting for me in the car and I said 'Oh I’ll be really quick and out in like ten minutes’."
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O'Connor became emotional remembering the day, telling Crawford: "I'll talk as much as I can here before I get upset."
She continued that she quickly gathered that something wasn't right. "The minute she put the thing on, I just knew by her – she had this look about her and was just silent. And she told me 'I’ll be back in just a minute’ and I thought ‘Jesus Christ, don’t say this to me’.
"Then she brought the doctor in and she just said ‘Pippa, I’m really sorry, there’s no heartbeat’.
"Like – I was just so floored. My initial reaction was ‘Okay, that’s fine’ and I was literally putting my coat on to go to the door and she was calling me back," O'Connor said before getting emotional.
"My initial reaction was 'Of course this is going to happen, you have two healthy kids. You can't always have it plane sailing’.
"I was embarrassed, I felt like I was wasting her time and couldn’t wait to get out of there. I thought ‘Don’t be such a stupid b*tch’. I was almost punishing myself straight away."
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O'Connor announced last year that she was expecting her third child with husband Brian, which prompted her to open up about her miscarriage for the first time. "I decided to say it out because I didn't want to just announce the pregnancy and go 'Here we go again, lucky us’. I just felt like I wasn’t being true or honest.
"I thought it was important to say it and I'm glad I did. When you say something out loud you’re comforting yourself and someone else."
The following October the couple welcomed their third son, Billy, who joined Ollie and Louis.
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