Ben Foden insists he ''never meant to hurt'' his ex-wife Una Healy and admitted his life is a bit of a ''mess'' now.
Speaking during an appearance on Celebrity SAS: Who Dares Wins, the 33-year-old rugby player said he will always love The Saturdays singer.
''My life's a bit of a mess. I'll always love Una. She's my first love and the mother of my kids. I never meant to hurt her in the way I did. I think it's quite appropriate to do a course like this to put some perspective on everything.
"At the same time, it wasn't the only reason for our divorce to go through. It's not ideal, but we're very amicable, we're getting through it, we're not the first people in the world to get divorced. We've got two little kids we adore.
"At the moment anything that's published about me is never very good and pretty rightly so because I was the one who committed adultery. It's hard because I'm away from my son and daughter.
"But I know they're in a great and loving environment with Una because she's a great mum. We never argue about that.''
Healy recently revealed that she hopes that she and her estranged husband can have an amicable relationship in the future.
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