Sepp Blatter revealed that he will fight his eight-year ban from FIFA and again insisted that he is innocent of any wrong doing.
Suspended FIFA President Blatter and European soccer chief Michel Platini were both banned from all football activities for eight years by FIFA's Ethics Committee this morning.
"I am really sorry. I am sorry that I am still somewhere a punching ball."
The pair, who were also fined, had been suspended for 90 days in October while an investigation was carried out into a 2 million Swiss franc payment by FIFA to Platini in 2011.
At a rambling press conference, which Blatter opened by speaking about Nelson Mandela and 'humanity', the disgraced FIFA chief did use the word sorry but reserved it to bemoan his treatment from the FIFA ethics committee.
Blatter said at the packed news conference: "I will fight for me and I will fight for FIFA. Suspended for eight years for what? I spoke with my lawyer this morning, who was not surprised the notification of the decision was first made to the media and later to those who should receive it. Communication in this ethics committee is an example of how you shall not do it.
"I am really sorry. I am sorry that I am still somewhere a punching ball. I am sorry that as president of FIFA I am this punching ball. I am sorry for football. I am sorry for the 400 plus FIFA team members. I'm sorry about that. I am also sorry about me and about how I am treated in this world of humanitarian qualities."
Blatter continued: "You can identify me as an optimist. We thought we had convinced the panel with Mr Eckert in the chair about this situation which was created about the payment by FIFA and to Michel Platini for an on-going contract which was never terminated.
"We are in a so-called oral contract or gentleman's agreement and this was made in 1998 just after the World Cup in France where Mr Platini approached me, and I approached him because we were together there, and said he would like to work for FIFA.
"I said it is wonderful if you come to FIFA but he said 'I am a very expensive man' and I said that's OK but we cannot pay you now. What astonishes me now, if I am going through the decision today, is they deny the existence of such an agreement."