Bob Geldof has revealed that he wrote a list of reasons to "go on" after his partner of 20 years Paula Yates left him, before her untimely death.
According to the Press Association, Geldof said in an interview on BBC Radio 4 programme Meeting Myself Coming Back that he was "destroyed" when his wife and partner of 20 years, Yates, left him.
Referring to her death he said: "I was beyond despair - I didn't understand a single thing.
It was so mad and ultimately epic in its tragedy; Shakespearean, I know that sounds grandiose but I don't think you can describe it any other way."
Geldof had three children with Television presenter Yates, Fifi Trixibelle, Peaches and Pixie, before she left him for Michael Hutchence, lead singer with INXS.
He added: "When she left me I was destroyed. I loved her very much.
And I didn't understand why - never saw it coming. So I just floated. The pain was beyond immensity. The grief was universes of grief, my head was crowded with loss."
At one point in his life he admits that "the pain was so intense" that he considered suicide and wrote a list of reasons to "go on" and reasons not to.
He said: "There was only one item in the list for why I should continue: it just said, 'the children'."
The interview, with 59-year-old former Boomtown Rats frontman is due to be aired next Saturday at 8pm.
