The 30-year-old singer-songwriter opened up to speak about how social media contributed to her anxiety, depression and eating disorder.
There is no doubt that the internet can be a mean and nasty place. The fact that people are staring at their screens and not looking at the person they are addressing gives them a sense of anonymity that allows them to feel as if they can say anything without repercussion.
The truth is, cyber-bullying spreads itself out, it makes circles that can reach into every sphere of an individual's life by messing with their self-perception in a way that leaves them feeling miserable, helpless and worthless.
It can affect everyone - celebrities, adults, teens and even children, who haven't learned how to cope with hearing hateful or cruel things - this can leave them feeling completely depressed, without a sense of self-worth.
Since stars and celebrities are public figures, who use social media as part of their career, they're an easy and popular target for internet trolls - the more unique they are, the more successful and famous they become and the more hate they receive online.
Kesha is one of those victims - a person who has seen the dark side of social media and has been majorly affected by the cruel things people have said about her online. Now she's speaking up about her experiences with internet trolls and the consequences of their words.
TeenVogue magazine published the True Colors-singer's essay, titled: "Remember that beauty comes in all shapes and sizes. And that no one can take the magic you make."
In the article, the singer writes about how she's been bullied for being different for as long as she can remember:
"I’ve been an outcast ever since I can remember."
"I grew up in Nashville, with a single mom who was oblivious to social norms. She encouraged me to make music, sew my own clothes, and express myself.
"She told me never to be ashamed of who I was. Other kids didn’t know what to make of me", she explains.
Eventually, Kesha tried to conform and be more like her peers. She attempted to adjust, to fit in, to give up on her outstanding individuality, but it didn't go so well:
"I was often bullied and shamed into hiding the things that made me unique."
"I remember hanging up the velvet pants I had made by hand and asking my mother to take me to the Gap to buy some 'normal clothes' at one point. That experiment failed miserably. It just wasn’t me", she shares.
When Kesha, whose single Tik Tok is among the best-selling digital singles in music history, blew up and started to gain more and more fame, her unique look and rowdy attitude attracted attention from millions of people from all over the globe - people who were willing to share their thoughts about her online.
She writes: "When I think about the kind of bullying I dealt with as a child and teen, it seems almost quaint compared with what goes on today.
"I know from personal experience how comments can mess up somebody’s self-confidence and sense of self-worth. I have felt so unlovable after reading cruel words written by strangers who don’t know a thing about me."
"The amount of body-shaming and baseless slut-shaming online makes me sick."
The 30-year old goes on to say that all the negative opinions people spread and all the names she was called and the comments on her looks contributed to her mental health issues and made a healing process almost impossible for her.
Kesha writes: "It became a vicious cycle: When I compared myself to others, I would read more mean comments, which only fed my anxiety and depression. Seeing paparazzi photos of myself and the accompanying catty commentary fueled my eating disorder.
"The sick irony was that when I was at some of the lowest points in my life, I kept hearing how much better I looked.
"I knew I was destroying my body with my eating disorder, but the message I was getting was that I was doing great."
As the singer, who found fame at just 22-years of age, advanced in years, she realised that the only person who can change her state of mind and self-confidence was herself.
"In the past couple of years I’ve grown up a lot. I’ve realized that once you take the step to help yourself, you’re going to be so happy you did. Taking the time to work on yourself requires bravery. You have to figure out what makes you feel good and what keeps you in a positive head space", she writes in her revealing essay.
"Trying to change your life based on other people’s thoughts can drive you crazy."
And since the internet and social media platforms like Twitter, Facebook and Instagram form a kind of melting pot of people's thoughts, she learned that there are times when she needs to stand back from it, even though she loves to use it to connect with her fans on a personal level.
"This is one reason why I’ve changed my relationship with social media. I love it because it’s how I communicate with my fans and nothing means more to me than my fans but too much of it can exacerbate my anxiety and depression," she explains.
Today Kesha understands her vulnerabilities as a strength, not a weakness. Her next album, which she is currently writing, will be inspired by her experiences and her new way of thinking. She hopes to pass along a healthy mindset to her fans and other people struggling with themselves.
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