Almost two years after John Galliano's fall from grace, he is now talking about his turbulent life, citing alcohol and drug abuse for his spectacular demise, in a new interview with Vanity Fair.

The designer blames alcohol and drug abuse for his spectacular demise, which began with his anti-semitic tirade in a Parisien bar which was caught on camera and led to a lengthy court case. In his first interview since he was fired from Christian Dior, the British fashion designer, 52, said that he lived in a "bubble" where he was so divorced from reality that he did not even know how to use an ATM.

He admitted that the pressures of his career - at the very pinnacle of the fashion world - contributed to his dependence on alcohol and prescription drugs, making him so addicted that he could barely function without them.

The designer says he turned to pills because he couldn’t sleep, and began taking more because he couldn’t stop shaking. "I would also have these huge bottles of liquor that people got for me," he said. "Towards the end, it was whatever I could get my hands on. Vodka, or vodka-and-tonic. Wine, in the belief it would help me sleep... I had all these voices in my head, asking so many questions.”

Galliano admits that he was so out of control, he did not even remember the evening he made the racist remarks and when he did eventually see the video footage, he was so appalled he threw up. In remarks released ahead of the magazine's publication, Galliano said that his problems with substance abuse had become so bad that he might have died had he not disgraced himself and lost his job, thus forcing him to seek help.

"I was going to end up in a mental asylum or six feet under... it sounds a bit bizarre, but I am so grateful for what did happen. I have learned so much about myself. I have re-discovered that little boy who had the hunger to create, which I think I had lost. I am alive," he said.

The interview has been seen by many as Galliano’s attempt to revive his career but will his apology be enough to make people give him a second chance? Only time will tell...